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Monday, February 20, 2017

Who Do I Think I Am?

I have been trying to figure out who the hell I am since I was born.  I am still searching.  The things I'm certain of is that I like to make people laugh, if I'm not being creative I would spiral into a deep depression, and I am always broke.  I have been fighting so hard to be a full time artistic beauty blogger and Youtuber that it has officially run my pockets dry.  When I even think or talk about quitting I hyperventilate into a crying fit so I guess that option is out.  
That might sound silly to you, but it is part of what I am about.
I wanted this photoshoot to represent me, now.  All of the professional images I had
were from years ago when I was more bubbly and cutesy in my pinup modeling adventures.  "Cheesecake Pinup" innocence.  That isn't what I am about anymore.  
I am a 37 year old woman and my perception of life isn't seen through the eyes of a 20 something girl like it once was.  
 I follow a beauty blogger on Youtube named Rebecca under channel name "Frugalista Blog".  I found her Youtube channel when I was searching for beauty bloggers in their 40's and she was one of the first that popped up.  I thought, cool now I know there is a market for all ages in the beauty video world.  But she said something last week that rang in my ears a bit.  Something along the lines of how she wishes bigger beauty brands would market themselves to women over the age of 20 because we wear makeup too.  I started thinking how the owners of these companies are all in their 40, 50's and even some 60's so why are they predominately choosing a demographic of young women?  Anastasia, Too Faced, even Kat Von D.  We shouldn't be left with the "unfun" cosmetic brands for "mature skin".  From what I have noticed in my 10 years of working as a freelance makeup artist, the majority of clients who walk up to MAC with questions about choosing a lipstick or foundation are working mothers.
A couple of young gals that I work with mentioned the other day how "When they are 30 they are going to get plastic surgery and get everything lifted, especially their boobs".  I was shocked.  I didn't think boobs dropped until they were way older than that!  I fired right back, "Well girls, I'm in my 30's and mine look great!" Even if they did drop, isn't that why we have bras?  Plus if you have some wrinkles isn't that why we have photo editing?  (insert cry laugh emoji here) 
Just look at Baddie Winkie!  She is my age-tastic role model.  
It saddens me us women have so much pressure about maintaining our youth to the point of cutting into our faces and breasts.  Now I don't have any problem with someone who chooses to do that, we are all of our own will and if that's what one needs, so be it.  I just personally hope that I don't get to a mental state where when I see myself in the mirror, I don't like who looks back at me.  I already give myself so much shit for gaining weight and it does bother me quite a bit.  But it's ME in there...somewhere behind all of the tattoos and fat and skin, inside is a Seanna.  I really want to be good to her.  I want to praise her and love her.  I could cry just thinking about how I have been so hard on her.  She is just trying to live and love and enjoy this life given to her.  Why do I give her so much shit?  
I've really been trying to figure out who I want to be on my Youtube channel.  I've decided that my artistic side is what needs to shine through and I need to drop the ageism I have branded on myself and just be whomever naturally flows from within.  I don't want to follow the rules in the beauty industry and I never have.  I don't have to do a full face using only highlights tag.  I don't need to live in California in order to rub elbows with other popular bloggers.  I don't need to try to be anyone else or compare myself.  

So that's it.  Even though I still don't know "Who I am" or if I'll ever figure it out, I hope that I can at least learn to love myself for exactly who I've become.  

Thanks for visiting.

~Sea

Photography, Editing, Makeup, Hair, Styling are all done by yours truly.
Copyright included, wink!

Friday, February 17, 2017

Glossybox February 2017

This entire unboxing is available to view on my Youtube channel!  
Just click the video below to watch. 

The makeup Gods have spoken.  This is the best Glossybox EVER!

I appreciate the specialty boxes they occasionally send where there is a fancy design rather than the typical pink ones and this month's was absolutely beautiful with the flowery lid.
 For those who aren't aware, Glossybox is a monthly beauty subscription founded in Berlin back in 2011.  It costs $21 a month and you receive 5 deluxe samples every month ranging from makeup, to hair, and even nail products too.  If you watch my Youtube videos you will see me occasionally featuring some of the products I receive as a "Monthly Favorite" because after I've tried it I find myself wanting to share with my subscribers how kick ass it is.

If you subscribe to Glossybox you can also share your own personal code with your friends and if they use it, you get even more points toward a free box.  

If you decide to subscribe because of this review please use my code!!  Just click here.

 Now let's talk products this month!

Right out of the gate I am going to discuss my favorite thing.  
It's actually my favorite thing I have ever received from any beauty subscription EVER.  

The Jeanne Arthes L'Eau De Rose Parfum $26
I have been on the hunt for a rose scented perfume for ages.  I actually just got the Elizabeth & James roller-ball Nirvana rose cologne (which I do love) but wanted something even rosier.  Not too dated smelling but just the right amount of delicate rose petal.  THIS is the exact scent I have been searching for and it just landed in my lap, literally.  It also contains notes of peach and bergamot in it which, peach is my other favorite scent so this is just a win win across the board.  Jeanne Arthes is a french perfumer that has been around since 1978.  I am so happy to have this, STOKED!

Next up is the Pink Gel Coat from Perfect Formula $30
Apparently this is an item you can purchase at Sephora.  It is meant to strengthen, brighten, and protect natural nails with keratin.  This also arrived with impeccable timing since I just removed my acrylic nails and am letting my nail beds heal.  As I mention in my video, I'm currently taking Biotin vitamins with hopes of growing my hair and nails stronger and faster.  So far my hair has grown sufficiently faster in the past couple of months!
  I am excited to wear this gel coat and put it to the test.  If it works it will surely be featured in my next Favorites video.

Estee Edit by Estee Lauder, Pink Peony Overnight Water Pack $50
My curiosity is strongly growing over the new Estee edit products that are popping up lately.  According to Estee Lauder's website, it's a simplified range of products that are meant to be essentials for all things beauty.  I am still not completely sure what they mean by all that but I do like the idea of simplifying products rather than confusing us into what it is meant for.  This water-gel mask contains fruit and flower extracts (peony, blueberry, cranberry) and antioxidants.  It is said to hydrate and brighten the skin while you sleep.  I'm a sucker for an Overnight Mask.  I love the idea of giving my skin extra moisture while I sleep so this could potentially be a real winner.
I will def try this one and report back!

Eve By Eve's Radiant Glow Cream Blush $19
I have heard some great things about Eve by Eves by another blogger.  This is a more high end brand offering not just cosmetics but also sleepwear and regular clothing too.
This pink cream blush is pretty adorable.  I picture doing a really delicate pinky glowy cheek with it in the Spring, a nice touch when the tulips start to bloom and the mohawked Blue Jays that regular our place go nuts chirping outside my window in the berry bushes again. 
It swiped on so buttery and has a nice shiny kick to it.  LOVE.  Simply love it.

Schwarzkopf Professional Moisture Kick Beauty Balm $15
Everything I got so far had beautiful packaging...so this was like "meh" at first glance but still a very useful product.  It's basically a balm you apply to towel dried hair to add some moisture to it before letting it completely dry or if you intend on using heated styling tools afterward.  I really look forward to trying this out and wish I had this earlier when I washed and styled my hair!  
It would have been perfect.

So that's it!  A nice little review of this month's Glossybox.  

I can't say enough good things about it.  Go watch the live unboxing here if you fancy a bit more of a first impression of each product.

 Thanks for visiting!